Why did he decide after so many years together
we were through
Like an idiot I begged pathetically to no avail
How was I to know he had already replaced me

I was being tossed out and discarded by my love since childhood
The words he spoke came at my face like hot spit
Every letter of every word burning into my soul

"I will always have a place for you in my heart"
He said as he was tearing my heart out
I thought, "If I hold such a place in your heart, why are you doing this?"

I want it to stop hurting
I want it to stop hurting
STOP

All the people who really love me, tell me I am better off without him
That I need to get over it
I am trying

It would be easier I think if he had not chosen her
Her
Her who I trusted
Her who I confided in
Her who said she loved me also
then left with him

I am still crying myself to sleep and then I am angry for it
I am still seeing them together in the dark corners of my mind
I can't stop
I can't

I am in a hole He and She dug for me and I can't reach up high enough to climb out
I know that soon the people who really love me will stop coming to check on me
It is just becoming tiresome for them

I ask myself "How could I have loved and trusted two people so much for so long to have them do this hideous thing"
Was my love so bad

It is still sometimes hard to breathe
and it is all I can do to get out of bed each day
Will it ever get better?
Please Stop Hurting!

Our relationship was loving, screaming, hurting, laughing, learning, screaming, hurting and loving again
He made me feel loved, unwanted, stupid, pretty, comfortable and miserable
I loved him

He complained about me and I complained about him
But we loved each other truly
or so I thought

Yes she was my best friend for almost as many years as we were married
Now they are two people I do not know
They are two people I would not want to know
so why can't I stop thinking about them

Why can't I stop crying over them
Why do I hate her so much
But still love him
When will it stop hurting?
just stop hurting!
PLEASE!